fine....

Thinking... pondering... Dwelling to long on things I'm not even sure of. Focusing too long on dreams, or nightmares really, and allowing them to transform into a semblance of reality despite my attempts to fight back.

My thoughts are so good at manipulating my better judgement; twisting and contorting it into something so believable that I can't help but give in. And now...I just continue to mull over the same thoughts, the same hunches, the same fears, and pray that none of them are true, that none of them will come true.... that they will all remain dead.

I wonder what I'm doing. I get so frustrated with myself for being so gullable. How can one convince themselves of something that isn't even true. Such a loaded question. I do it all the time.