bones...

I've noticed a pretty drastic change in my personality... I remember as a child, and even as a young adult, my ability - or weakness depending on the perspective - to wholly and completely trust someone; whether I knew them or not, I would easily fall into believing every word and action.

But now, suddenly, I find myself jaded, suspicious, scared. I find myself doubting, questioning, pulling away. I hate it... But I keep pulling. I continually assume everyone else has something their hiding, keeping in dark corners, concealing behind closed doors, and it's not until I let down my defenses and allow myself to begin to merge toward something resembling trust that those skeletons are not just released, but thrown at me with a certain vengeance... It's all in my head, I like to think.

My trust in the world is slowly fading...