wait....

Do you ever find yourself waiting for that one important email containing all-encompassing, life-changing news and you can't help checking your email every other minute, only to either find nothing or maybe worse to find some stupid, mundane piece of spam in its place? And with each passing minute, every time you look and don't find what you're looking for, the anger, confusion and overall depression just continues to build.

I hate the desperation I feel churning in my stomach. I hate being so anxious and having my future at the subject of someone else's whimsy. I just want an answer so I can stop wondering, waiting and looking.... even though I know that not having the answer I want means I just have to start the process all over again.