newton...

The whole process is exhausting... My anxiety is reaching levels I haven't experienced in a long time, mostly just because my desperation is that high. In less than 24 hours, I'll be subjecting myself to the torture of being under a microscope, offering up my hard work and experience for either complete slaughter or acceptance. The anticipation is more than I can take. My stomach is already churning, my fingers have begun their nervous twitch and my mind is racing a million miles a minute. What if this? What if that? What if this then that? What if nothing?

My resolve to stand up for myself and my capabilities has led me to this and I can only hope that such brazen determination will have a positive outcome. I'm not looking for a happily ever after into the sunset... I'm just looking for a happier at sunrise.

I am strong, confident, capable, and I deserve this.