rise...

Ever feel like you're know you're meant to do something different than what you're doing but you're just not sure what? I feel like I'm stuck in this rut and I'm trying to get out, but nothing is working. I'm ready for a change, albeit it frightening; I'm ready to feel like I'm valued, like everything I do is actually recognized and appreciated.

I had a test in patience and gratuity this week, and it wasn't easy to swallow. Despite what I think I deserve, sometimes the world just doesn't cut the pie fairly. My father's favorite saying was always "I didn't ask if it was fair." So true in so many ways. I had to pause and remind myself to be thankful for what I actually do have. I do have a loving husband who comes home to me every day, I do have a caring family that I know I can count on in the good times and the bad, I do have a paying job that allows me to get by in life, I do have my health. I have a lot that many probably don't, and for that I have to bite my tongue and simply be satisfied.

In the meantime, I can only do my best, go beyond what is expected of me, and live up to the work ethic I'm proud that my parents taught me.