look...

I look into your eyes and I see
visions of our future unfolding.
Years from now, still holding
hands and mirroring electric
smiles.
I see new dreams beginning and
old dreams coming true,
transforming into lifelong memories
that ebb and flow.
I see rambunctious toddlers
rambling through a lush green
yard, a red ball stark
against a perfectly blue
sky.
I see you and me together -
two characters caught in the
whimsy of a fairytale
that has only just begun.

wait...

Anxiously waiting,
fingers twitching,
toes tapping,
thoughts racing.
Constant glances
at the calendar
stir up a sigh of
frustration, swells
of anticipation, hope
for jubilation.
Desperate to reign
in wishing these
mediocre days away.
Slow and steady
wins the race
to the altar.

twidling...

My posts seem to be getting lazy... they keep waiting longer and longer to inspire me and it makes me wonder. Perhaps I'm just too busy and distracted or perhaps I'm just extremely focused. Thankfully, the wedding planning is slowing down. Most would probably think that as the wedding gets closer, the planning would speed up, but for now, we've encountered a lull and I'm not going to complain. Despite the occasional meeting and purchase here and there, it hasn't been wedding, wedding, wedding 24/7 for which I'm sure my fiance is thankful. I'm already anticipating that the last month or two before the big day will suddenly overflow with to-do's and must-buy's, but for now, we're really looking forward to enjoying our summer that is already quickly filling up. We have high aspirations to go kayaking, canoeing, plant a garden, make a weekend escape to somewhere not to far away, and simply enjoy time with friends and family in the delicious sunny warmth of the summer.

I can't help but swallow a lump of jealousy, though, as the summer brings with it a barrage of weddings before our own. Of course I'm happy for the happy couples... I'm just ready for my special day to be here. Perhaps some of the twinges of jealousy dwell in the knowledge that most of the weddings happening this summer are the culmination of engagements much shorter than our own. I was the first of four to get engaged on my father's side and yet I have three cousins wedding before me. I just accept that we have reached that age where everyone we know is either getting married or having babies. Patience is a virtue I have to pride myself on and I will simply hang on the cliche that the best is saved for last.

Despite all those thoughts, I know without a doubt that despite the other brides' confidences that they are marrying the most amazing man in the world.... I believe I in fact can honestly say the most amazing man in the world is indeed mine, and for him I can patiently wait until September.